We Are Our Own Worst Enemy!

Hello there! Can I ask you a question and get a little personal with ya?

Have you ever found yourself in a situation that was really scary for you and you constantly worried about what might come of it? Maybe even conjuring up in your head certain scenarios that could happen as a result?

Well let me tell you I found myself in that kind of situation this summer and it had me on edge for about a month!

You see, a few months ago I got a letter from the imaging center I had gone to for my yearly mammogram and this time the letter read differently than it had every other year. The letter said that I needed to go in for further diagnostic imaging due to the denseness of the tissue making it hard for them to get a proper read on the images. I thought that was odd at the time but wasn’t too worried…at least not yet!

So I went in a month later for the additional scans they were requesting and they said they would call me with the results once the radiologist was able to read them. Again, not that big of a deal and no real worries.

Then a few days later I vividly remember being in the meat section at Publix when I got the call. On the other line was the nurse telling me they had found decalcifications with a Category 4 suspicious malignancy and I needed to see a specialist and schedule a biopsy. Wait, what?? There is no breast cancer in my family! How could this be?

The fears began to build and build and the various outcomes that played out in my head each day starting to plague me with constant worry. Would I have cancer? What kind of treatment would I have to go through? Is it possible that I had this last year and they missed it and if so has it spread?

I had to wait a few weeks to go in for the biopsy as they were completely booked up. If you have never had this kind of biopsy done I can tell you that it’s no fun and quite painful and the area they had to get at was not easy for them to reach!

A week passed and I went nervously into my doctors office to get the results and found out that it was benign and that there were some changes that had to be made in my diet ( I’ll get to that in another post) and that I had to come every 6 months instead of every year. PHEW!! What a huge relief this was for me! I could now get some sleep and go back to living!

I share this with you in the hopes that if you find yourself right now in a similar place that is scary and uncertain, don’t waste time worrying about something you cannot control. I wasted so much time and energy during that month while I waited for my results and everything ended up just fine. Don’t allow yourself to get in that negative mindset and conjure up things in your head that most likely will never happen. Did you know that 85% of the things that we worry about actually never happen? 85%!! We really our own worst enemy at times and can make ourselves quite miserable as a result!

So be kind to yourself and do yourself a favor – if you ever find yourself in this kind of situation remind yourself that worrying about it won’t change a thing and remind yourself to focus on the things that you can control like your thoughts, feelings and your actions.

I know it can be tough, especially in the times we all find ourselves in right now to be strong when faced with uncertainty and unknowns but you got this and I promise you that you will get through this and be better as a result of the adversity you are facing.